Sunday, June 21, 2009 1:51 PM

away for good.

♥No matter how much i cried , no one understand me like how you Danny knows. Your leaving makes me understand you're a guy whom i can't rely on , all you gave me is point-less promises , unmatured action , shame-less things you said to me which you did not kept. I guess you might see this or not , i dont know , but all i know is , when i am so sure than you're the one , whom i willing to spent my life time with. And when i am sure that you're the one i can rely on , you back out. Back out of the game.I use these years to earn what we had when we are couples. It took me 4 years almost 5 years to gain everything.

During these years , i find count-less boyfriend and got emotional , all i did this because i wanted to earn your care. I may be a bitch in someway , but thats the only way i tried to forget you. None of them gave what you gave me.

None of them gave me the special feeling , and knowing how blissed i am to have you around as mine . You cared , loved , respected me. And most importantly you gave me an unforgetable Valentines that none of them gave me. Everything now is over , you choosed to escape , i choosed to forget. I guess i could , when times go by , feelings fade. You followed time and fade as well. I guess thats the end. End of everything , you're not going to return , you're not giving me any contact. I gave up. Its that. I won't cling on you anymore. None of such things. After all i wanted to thank you , for this 5 years.

Thanks for allowing me to know you.
Thanks for being my maple husband when i can call you ''Dear'' even you had a GF at that time.
Thanks for telling me all your stories.
Thanks for telling me your childhood.
Thanks for allowing me to carry some of your burdens.
Thanks for turnning to me when you're hurt by the pasts you had.
Thanks for telling me your everything.
Thanks for making me your sister.
Thanks for teaching me what is life.
Thanks for teaching me not to belive even its best friends.
Thanks for teaching me maths.
Thanks for making me trust you.
Thanks for teaching me how to pick myself up again.
Thanks for changing me from a weak Cher to a strong one
Thanks for the care you gave me in these years.
Thanks for the love you gave me in these years.
Thanks for the words you gave me in these years.
Thanks for the encourage you gave me in these years.
Thanks for the scoldings you gave me in these years.
Thanks for the teachings you gave me in these years.
Thanks for the midnight calls.
Thanks for the calls that makes me to sleep.
Thanks for the silly things that you do to make me smile.
Thanks for the morning wake up call everday.
Thanks for the messages you sent me to cheer me up after every break up.
Thanks for the confess you made.
Thanks for making me wait for you .
Thanks for not allowing me to be with you untill you are able to provide i something.
Thanks for the 2 teddy bear you gave me.
Thanks for the remembering of i loving teddy bears.
Thanks for the memorable valentines.
Thanks for the fetching me to home steps.
Thanks for the helding me back from the back when i am about to leave.
Thanks for the goodnight kiss you gave me on the cheek.
Thanks for the message you gave to make me to sleep.
Thanks for the movie tickets which you never allowed me to pay.
Thanks for the rubbing of my hands when i felt cold.
Thanks for the heart ache when my legs hurts.
Thanks for the support when i am on the train.
Thanks for the words we exchange.
Thanks for the being of 100 marks boyfriend.
Thanks for the viewing of couple ring.
Thanks for hugging me when i miss you so much.
Thanks for putting over your arms on my shoulder & hug me tight when i am afraid.
Thanks for being there when i broke down.
Thanks for being there when i needed you the most.
Thanks for loving me when i needed love the most.
Thanks for hearing all my grumbles everyday.
Thanks for being there when its dark.
Thanks for hugging me at the back when i really can't bear to leave you.
Thanks for telling me you really love me when you held my hands.
Thanks for looking into my eyes and tell me you love me.
Thanks for saying goodbye and good luck even it reaches the last.
Thankyou for leaving me with memories and memories and memories. Count-less memories.

Although our relationship came in a wrong way , You're still a perfect boyfriend , i belive you will find someone 100 times better than me. goodluck to you too.

i am really not okay , Memories on this blog is too much for me to carry , i am tired. tired of carrying fake mask , smile all day long. Smiling really tears me out. i am tired already. I guess i will leave this blog alone , as a memory , memory of Danny and Cher :)
thankyou.. my dear.